i always fuck shit up. i always do. why do i even bring up when i feel like shit? i should just keep to my fucking self. omfg. ugh. tony doesnt think what he says to me matters anymore. this fucking sucks ass. im sitting here alone int he fucking dark like i have bee for hours. but now only this time im crying. im a fucking peathetic loser. omfg. why am i so stupid. from now on im ganna try my best to just hide my pain from ppl. i dont wanna fuck them up too. ill prolly just end up fucking my self up more. goddd. ugh. im fucking leaving.