yesterday i ended up going to kailas house. Shes got a nicer house now with a pond that we swam in. Stephanie n Melissa n Zack came with me. It was good to chill with k again..i missed her so much even though things were "good" between us. it didnt feel the same. now im beginning to feel the love again. I want things to be exactly the same as b4 or better..but i dont think that will happen..cuz she said that she got really close with brittany blits..so idk. we'll see but im not ganna push it. Im also alittle scared of like..kaila getting close to stephanie. i dont think steph would do that to me but idk..it happend 2 times already. im scared if that happens ill lose kaila AND stephanie! i hope that wont happen :/ yea n last night my dad was bothering me. i cant stand him sometimes. He yells @ me about everything. i hate it. idk but i talked to tony n he always seems to have this power over my smile. Today I went over To dans house with tony. i fell asleep for 3 hours. haha i only had 3 1/2 last night so i figured why not..dans room..bed..there working..nothing else to do! so i slept! when i woke up they told me we were going to the movies to see I, Robot. that was a good movie. it was "sick" haha Me n Tony acually watched the movie n just cuddled through it. there were some kisses though! haha..that was my first time @ the movies with my boyfriend. I liek it..i have someone to hold me n suprise me with "i love yous" throughout the movie. i love you Tony wrote me another song. Im making a "wall of tony" in my bedroom next to mybed with all the stuff he gives me..important letters..songs..pictures..gift certifact wrapping from AE. haha..yea..i wont lose this song..i promise tony. Thanks for everything today baby..you made me smile a zillion times. i love you so much. well im out..stephanie sat home all day n now shes upstairs alone while im here. so im ganna go up. write more later er tomarrow.