Well Wednesday I stayed after with tony n then had my mom pick me up @ the middle School for counseling. We got there about 10 mins early so we waited alittle. Got in there but my mom came in with me first. talked about confedentiality n shit like that n then i told my mom to leave so i could really talk. shes wicked easy to talk to. I love going there, you can break down how you really feel and she cant sit there n judge you cuz she doesnt know you. Its all about you form the moment you go in there till the second you leave. It's the once place where you can be completly selfish. You dont have to be worried about ppl getting mad or upset while ur there. you can say anything you want. I told my mom that i liked it and wanted to keep going. I got home n My computer was like fucking up wicked bad n went through this whole thing with switching monitors n such. that didnt work..so i switched it back n it worked. n i broke a peice off in the process. haha shhh then i started talking to tony n this whole big thing happned which i didnt mean for it to. We were talking about the counsler n how she asked me how would i rate me n tonys relationship..1-10. i said whoa!! like a 9. n he was alittle offended cuz he thinks im a 10. it was not possed to be like. it was supossed to be like a huge compliment. Hes the best thing in my life. nothing is better. i can honestly say that without doubts. it was over within a halfhour or so. that was good. i felt wicked shitty. but he always makes me feel better..n i hope i made him feel better too. Dustin called from nevada. It was nice to hear from him i guess. He asked how me n tony were doing. he got a mazada 6 in light blue. He doesnt like living there. hes ganna try to move in with shawn. he always causes shit between me n tony though. n he didnt even do anything. It just makes tony alittle sad but he always says he doesnt care but i know he does. so if its ganna make tony anything but happy its not worth hearing from him then. i feel bad when i tell him. i dont wanna keep it from him though. then he would be even more upset. idk. then i got in a huge ass fight with my dad about seeing tony the next day. it was so fucking gay. he was being the biggest prick. idk though. i threw a huge fit cuz it wasnt even my fault. ugh. why does he have to be so dumb!? eventually my mom came into the picture n helped me out. so yea..i got to see tony the next day without a huge problem. so yea..that was all on wednesday. It wasnt thr greatest day. but now im ganna go write another entry about my day yesterday cuz i hate HUUUUGE entrys even though this ones alittle long. see ya later. i love you tony..More then anything