everying is getting worse. god, i feel so down all the time. I basically just sat around all weekend moping. I feel like nothing will be the same. I feel like I can't even talk to my dad about any of this because everytime I do..I cry. and i cant cry in front of my dad..its hard to explain, but i know it will make everything worse. and i feel like im losing people that I can really talk to although Im gaining many as well. It's getting hard and confusing. Im begining to really think about who I can trust. My mom came up to me today(sunday) and shes like, "hunnie are you ok..you have been laying around hardly even cracking a smile" and do you know what I said..I simply said, "mom, I'm fine" and walked away with tears. I dont know who to turn to anymore. I cant talk to anyone. Well im ganna get going..schools tomorrow for the first time in more than a week and I guess I should get a good night sleep. Schools making everything worse too. It's hard keeping my Grades up, but I know I have to keep trying because so far..Ive been doing well and thats about the only Thing good right now.