i hate when skinny people think they are fat. what does that make me feel like..WICKED SHITTY. edfsdkflkjf yesterday was a good day with tony. We just hung around alittle..burned some CDs and talked alot. it was good though. i went to bed around midnight cuz i was tierd. I woke up and talked to my mom for like an hour. put me in a bad mood cuz we started talking about all my dads suicidal attemps and how hurt he was. I wish my dad didnt go through those things last summer. In like august it wil be a year sence my dad moved out and in october it will be like a year sence they got leagly seperated. It still feels like it just happened and im still trying to cope with it. idk. im done now:( edit well i just took a run and i feel fucking worse. I just pushed my self to hard to lose weight and i had an asthma attack. right in someones fucking lawn:( i was alone too. Uaually someones with me and helping me but not this time. I was alone and scared. I made it all the ay to ashleys house which you have to go up harding hill which i made it up, but i had to push myself. god. It hurts. It hurts emotionally and mentally. Not only can I not breath very well right now, but i have to live with cant being able to run long terms. It's not fair. All my friends can run and lose the weight that they want to by running and keeping in shape like that. I know part of it is eating right which i am but i wanna run too! Why can't I just be like everyone else!