So hurt. My legs, my arms, my back, my fingers. So much hurting. But, thats what band does to you. I really shouldnt even go. Who cares there? If I didnt show up then the only person who would MAYBE care would be my section leader, otherwise... I saw him today, and said hello. He says that he loves me when I talk to him on the internet... Why doesnt he love me in real life? Prove your love, and maybe we can make something of ourselves. I am feeling fat, so I put myself on a liquid only diet. This meens no hard food, no carbs, no protein. I have been on this almost-self-starvation diet since five pm yesterday. I am proud of myself, I say that I am going to not eat so much and then within ten minutes I am pigging out. I have lasted almost a day! Only four more and it will be 24 hours! yay! I got a new swimsuit yesterday, my mom picked it out, its pink and has black polka dots on it. It is a two peice, thank goodness, and I wore it on saturday. Saturday I went swimming at my grandpas house. It was nice. Drew a picture yesterday, a girl was floating in water. The water was purple and had monsters in it, but the girl was smiling. I dont think the girl knew about the monsters, she was too busy enjoying the sun. Silly girl, now she is going to die because she didnt pay attention. New record for me: I, Hollie, have not made out in two weeks... I dont like this record. Its mostly because I am grounded. But, the void knows that already. All I do now is go to church, go to band, and sleep. I would usually put eat in their... I would put eat in alot... but not today. He still doesnt know who I am. I think I will just stop liking him. There is no point in liking someone if they dont like you back. It just ends in bad feelings. Hmm... you told me you wanted to make out with me, is this true? Prove that you love me first. You dont even talk to me, how can I make out with you if you dont even talk to me! Oh well... everyone needs a dream right? I think I might go to the library again today, I always learn things their. He said that he was sorry he missed my call. He said that he was sleeping. I told him that I missed him, and he said that he was always thinking about me. I miss him, oh I miss him. Sharing is for people who care, and people who care have friends. You cant have any. Actions speak louder than words, and yet we are often wooed by them. Wouldnt you rather have someone give you a hug rather than them telling you that you are their friend? Wouldnt you rather have someone hold your hand, or kiss you, or would you rather be told that you are loved? Actions for me. I got a letter. She knew I was grounded. Getting letters makes you feel as if you are chosen. You feel special when you get a letter. To those of you that know me, send me letters. I heart letters. Marched strenuously today, thats why I hurt. Played in the hot hot sun. Ran around. I sweat. Was kind of immodest, my black bra strap hanging out. Oh well, screw you. Ow... my stomache growls. It wants to eat the yummy food. "No no stomache" I say, "You cannot eat anything, you are too fat" Poor stomache... A last thought to those riders of the infinite net. Is beauty real? In the name of the slacker