My insides are all twisted. I dont know what to say. I dont know what to do. All I want right is sleep. Just sleep, forever. I want to cry so badly, but at the same time I want to laugh out loud, and scream in anger. The one thing I dont want is you. He worries about me with you. He says he prays for me. I dont know what to think anymore. My life has been turned upside down and back again, and everything is floating down around me, as if I was trapped inside a snowglobe. And I want to get out. Your right, I want to meet new people. I want to start over. I dont want all of these left over feelings that my friends have killed. They are the same. Or maybe I am not the same. Someone killed them. I want to start over my life. I wish I could meet you all again. I wish I could've been better to everyone. This afternoon I layed on the heater in my bathroom, and stared at the ceiling. I hang up the phone. And I stare. I dont know how I feel. I loved you once. And then you where the bad guy. What are you now? I am so confused about everything. I just cry. Thats all. I just cry and hope that I wont cry so much tommorow. I am only sixteen. ...