I walk outside, the wind is cold on my face, and I feel the wet drops of rain on my face. It is so easy to be sad on days like these. The wind bites, the pavement is wet and gray, and you feel the sharp pinpricks of icy wetness. Its like you have a reason to be sad. You are sad anyways, life pisses you off, but when it rains, it is like life is pissed at you. lol... "The man comes toward me, proclaiming that we should make out hard core, and we do, and then we start to argue about hard core the making out was..." You... are silly. I... hate... school. Alot. I am in school right now. School pisses me off. AND... I have to stay after and take a test that I missed. I dont want to stay in school any longer than I have too. So I have been having weird random... worries. I dont usually worry right? I am usually like "I DONT CARE! AAHAHAHA!" ... But it seems like when I really get attatched to something, I worry about it. I should just not get attatched? I dont think I spelled attatched right...? But I shouldnt, we have already gone over this void... I shouldnt get involved with anything... because... then I worry about things. And... people get annoyed at my random paranoia. So... from on I am not going to care about anything, I dont care if you dont care if I care... because... I just dont. I am in a weird mood today. ... Guess I better go back to school? Nah... school is lame. I think I have a kidney stone... but my friend says that I dont have any kidneys where I am aching... just and ovarie and a colon... so... I think I have an ovarie stone... or something. It hurts to move. I... feel sad. I dont know why. I feel... I dunno... just sad... like I am helpless and hopeless and loveless and lifeless and lots of... -less...es. Blah... I will get over it. Eventually... bring on the drugs... please, just give me pain killers... pleeeease. In the name of ... things that piss me off...