Last night I cryed. My friend took me into her arms and hugged me, letting me tears all over her new shirt. Our other friend makes us sad... She is being mean... Thats all I want to say about her. This morning my father took me tubing down the Bear River. It was fun. He has been being nice to me lately. This afternoon I went ice-blocking with my friends... that was cool. I also had an eye-doctor appointment this afternoon. And I drove. Dad thought that we almost died... I had that left hand turn under control... goodness. School starts on Thursday. Tommorow is my last day of summer. Last night, I was over at my friends house... a bunch of people where there. They made me sad... I wandered away. I went down to the park. It was dark. The sprinklers where on. I layed in them, cryed, and went back to the house. I sat on the floor. He came over to sit by me. He asked if anything was wrong, I said no. He told me that he was worried about me, and then he held my hand. On the way home, I cryed in the car. She talked with me about it. She didnt cry. My face was getting blotchy, my mascara made lines down my face and neck. She gave me a hug. At home, I lay on my bed for awhile... and cryed... Got on the internet to talk to my friends... I had stopped crying for awhile... but then talking to them made me start all over again. Ended up crying myself to sleep. Me and my shitty emotions... I talked to him last night, he made me feel better. All I want to do is curl up in someones arms and cry. The someone needs to care about me, and comfort me. I want to be told that life will be good, and that I shouldnt die. I dont have a someone like that. I cryed some today too... I dont like to... but I do. I dont know what else to say. The last 24 hours have been water filled. Void... comfort me. In the name of fish