You force yourself to turn off your brain for awhile. To do whatever comes into your head at that particular moment. You live your life by instinct and never bother to be conscious again. Then, when you decide to turn your brain on again you realize that you have missed so much, and that you will never be able to regain that part of your life. I know I have talked about this before. You lose yourself. God my neck hurts. I know that most of this memory loss is because of last night. Pretty much my entire day was spent on that unconscious level. I am just beginning to wake up again. It was so gross, this morning, after I got woken up by his call, I rolled over onto my side and randomly like threw up in my mouth. So nasty... I had a good day though, considering. It was very relaxing, but still fun. I cant beleive we didnt get tired of that. Oh and P.S. I look back on everything now and realize what an arrogant asshole you were/are. I mean... I knew that you were, I guess I just didnt realize to what extent. And as true as it was that most of that was just idiocy on my part, all that you did was irritate it.