Ripping into the pale flesh Red liquid drips gently down my face Eyes close in NON-sexual pleasure... lol ... That is what it is like to eat a pomegranite... I think that there are only a few things better than that... and if I listed these things... it would be... a little more than G-rated. ... well actually alot more. lol. Anyways... We are back. Together. He took me back. I still miss him. It is only 15 more days untill my birthday. December 16. I will be sixteen on December 16. For any of you who doesnt know what mormonism is... I think you should know... that... you shouldnt join that religion. But anyway... When I am sixteen my parents will let me date. lol... it is a bad thing that I keep things from my parents.... if they knew I had a boyfriend... and have had one for a while... and have been kissing boys since I was 13... and... other stuff... then I would pretty much just be grounded for the rest of my life. But they dont know... lol. I love him so much. For alot of reasons. He just makes me feel... cherished But my birthday. Sweet sixteen. Is it really so sweet? I guess if I had passed drivers ed I would be able to drive... and I am going to be able to date... and... maybe have a little more priveleges? I really dont know. What do I want for my birthday? I really dont know... maybe a pony... lol. I am addicted to Avenged Sevenfold. Its cool. My new pen name is Emerald Amaranth. I guess if you translated that into plain english it would be "Green Sanctuary". Cool huh? I got my pen name from my friend Nikolas Black. I like feeling loved. Demonic you ask? i dunno... but I feel demonic. I feel like being bad... it happens sometimes. I just want to go out and do all of the things that I am not supposed to, and then maybe tommorow be normal again. "Its good to be bad if it is better than bored" right? ...And it is fun to be bad :D in the name of our own sanctuaries...