You're moving on. All of you. Come baaaaaaackkkkkkkk! I dont want to be left here by myself! I knew this day would come. The day where everyone is grown up and I still feel like I am just learning to walk. I think I might cry. As old as I try to be and as mature as I try to act I am still reminded that I am young and immature and dumb. And lame. Sometimes I feel like crying. Just random times, it doesnt matter what I am doing or who I am with. It feels like something is crushing me. I dont know how to fix it. I scare myself. When you have to really think about what you are living for, who you are living for, its scary. When you have to remind yourself that you cant just slit your wrists in the sink or take as many pills as you feel like swallowing. But, I also figure that if I die now no one is going to remember me in ten years. If I stick it out for a few more years maybe I can make a difference... in something... and people can remember me FOREVER. Sometimes I make myself sad. Lol. Yep, I am pretty pathetic. I hate that... I try to be good, and nice, and not talk to much, and friendly most of the time. Sometimes I even try being funny, which doesnt really work most of the time, but I try my best. And I just dont feel like I am getting anywhere. Thats what dad says. My life is going no where. And I usually laugh and tell him that its ok, cuz ending up like him doesnt sound to bad. But it does... oh it does. Everyone tells me that my life will go as far as I will take it, and all things considered I dont think it will go very far. My pessimistic attitude prolly isnt helping much.