It seems like this is kind of turning into a dream journal, sorry void, at least I am paying attention to you though?

So I had this dream last that makes me wish I didnt burn as many bridges as I did. I wish that I had had a chance at closure, you know? A chance to make everything better, instead of ignoring it.

I tried to apologize once, which pretty much blew up in my face, and made me not want to say sorry ever again.

I wouldnt even know where to start. Go to everyone I was ever mean to and be like "hey man, sorry or whatever, here is a gift basket." No, I think not.

But I find the guilt and regret getting less and less as time goes on. Maybe in a couple of years I will stop feeling remorseful, and just feel indifferent. That would be the best.