I dont know what I am doing with life. Its like I move from one addiction to the next, trying to keep myself happy long enough to look for another addiction. Its like there is no meaning, no real purpose. I have said before, I want to be something bigger, something important. I dont know how to. So you lie here on the floor, naked to the soul, exposing yourself for all to see. You give your entire self up, and hope that you wont get hurt. Jumping from a cliff headfirst into the cold cold ocean that is so far away. Putting your head in the hungry lions mouth. All you can do is hope that you wont get hurt, trust yourself enough to not die. I think about what heaven might be like when I lie in my bed at night. Maybe it is all clouds and rainbows. Maybe it is a thriving garden full of roses and butterflies and sunshine. Maybe it is just a huge exquisitly comfortable bed. Maybe it isnt. I want to die sometimes just so I can see what it is. Who knows, I might not even go there if I die. I dont know why I am so afraid of you. I have no real reason to be. You just arent like anyone I have ever known before, I dont know what to expect from you. naked to the soul...