Playing basketball against three of my distant relatives. Kicking their trash at basketball, by myself. Playing baseball against alot of my distant relatives, hit line drives mostly, but got a pop fly once. Throwing a plastic football around. Eating. Talking. Gossiping. Watching the old people laugh and joke. Listening to stories from way back when. Went to a family reunion yesterday. My moms side of the family. I am going to a family reunion today to. My dads side. You look like your family, you live with your family, you may even act like your family. I dont usually get along with most of my family. Except for my mom, maybe some cousins, a grandparent or two, and a few aunts and uncles, I hate family. But I go to these reunions, to appease them. You have to give the whole family hugs and kisses. They like to ask you how you are doing, and, how was school, and, how you are liking summer. You answer dishonestly. I am great, school was good, I am tottaly loving my summer. And they smile and cackle and say "What an adorable girl" and then walk away to some other unsuspecting descendant. Oh well. I see my friends every Sunday, they make me feel better. I am going to be ungrounded on July eleventh. Cant fucking wait. Laying on the grass. Looking up at the sky. Watching a dragonfly lazily land on a blade of grass. Watching the clouds swirl through the air above you. Seeing little kids playing in the street. The sun beats down. Sigh. So asrael, who are you? You remind me of someone I miss. He sometimes takes the name of asrael as well. Do you know who I am? Watching the blood slide down my leg. Seeing the small red pool near my foot. What would it taste like? Sitting on a bench under a street light. Wondering if my parents will find out. Not caring about how lonely I am. Watching the few cars drive past. Just sitting. Thinking about what I am. I feel like I am going to throw up. My body aches. Thinking of him. Damn. I dont care. I dont care anymore. I am numb to all feeling. I dont care about anything. I could sit and watch the world burn up and not care. I dont want to care. I hope I dont care. in the name of Mademoisell Faisceu De Lune