I guess I just dont care anymore. Its not like people ever really care. They say they do... but... they dont. I think I just make people pissy. Pretty much. I got in a little fight with one of my best friends and she tottally just... ... blew it out of porportion... and now she isnt talking to me. lol I complain constantly. I am eternally pessimistic. And I am a hypocrit. People dont like that kind of person. I am grateful for the friends that I do still have, but I just get the feeling that I am bothering them. Maybe I just need to have more self esteem. Or something. Gah... I know I have said this so many times, but it would just be easier if I died. I know, taking the easy way out, being a coward, not facing life. Again a flaw in my personality. I have counted so many, I just think I am one big flaw. I bet the void doesnt really care anymore. lol. Same old stuff for you, I guess I just need to get over myself.... or something. The song that I am listening to pretty much describes me. Do I have feelings? I am so selfish, do I care about anyone else? I want to, but when I do care I just get pushed away. Typical reaction to hollie. "Its me but I'm not sorry I let you down, bet you wish I never came around?" blah. in the name of old stuff