I stayed home from school today. I feel like there is a little slimy animal that is trying to crawl up my throat, and bring the rest of my insides up with it. And on that lovely mental picture... Other than being sick, I feel really good today. I feel like I havent felt. My heart has wings again and I just want to fly. Its beautiful. And right now, I know there are some sincere offers out there, but I still dont think that I could really get involved with any one right now. No one compares. But I am still happy. The last fingers that gripped me have been peeled off. Its like all of that antique dust in the air has been sucked out, and all the old relics have been cleaned out. I am looking at an empty room, and I feel so refreshed. I can put anything I want to in this room now, because all of the clutter has left. I cant start all over again. It feels nice. It is like when your leg falls asleep, and when it starts to wake up it hurts alot, but then afterwards it feels great. My heart has just been asleep. It was just dreaming. It was awake, but it eventually drifted off. I still dont regret. My mother is already listening to christmas music and burning cinnamon candles. I love the feeling of this time of year. I want to go dancing. I want to break down in the circle or I want to claim the pole. I want to go out and have fun, I want to flirt and I want to go crazy. I wont go like I was before. But I still want to have fun. I didnt know that the word never would make so many things better. I want a laptop for christmas. in the name of good...