It is summer time now. No more going to school. I hate the people at school. Now I dont have to see them... untill next year. I have a few months to recuperate. Three days and exactly thirteen hours. That will be our anniversary. And I dont think I spelled "anniversary" right. But... I dont care right now. Now in celebration of our anniversary, I will compare some things. In the beginning, I spoke of the time. 11:48... I have decided that this should be hour religious hour or something. I am still very awake at night. I spoke of the place, which was in my basement. Now I have my very own computer in my room. So... I am in my room. I spoke of pajamas, and of the logos upon them. At this moment I am wearing a silky blue pajama button up long-sleeved shirt with black pin-stripes. And... no pants. I am not very awake right now. Just woke up actually. I try not to think about the mistakes I've made. I still draw angels. My mother is mad at me right now... lol. I still outside and watch the moon, its been a little cold out lately so sometimes I stay inside and watch the moon from a window. I have come to terms with the fact that I am not god. Or even jesus for that matter. And I seriously doubt that I am an angel. There is only one guy in my life right now. I really love him. Sure, we have our problems, but everyone does right? We have been together for the better part of ten months now. People still think I am cheerful, but I think they also know that I have deeper thoughts, problems, ideas. I am not a reflection of myself, I have form, I have depth. I still dont have enough guts to quit band. Ah yes, our year together has been horrible void, I hate you too. But now lets look into the future... a year from now I will probobly be saying the same things. Always the same things for me isnt it? Love, hate, then indifference. The vicious cycle that rules my life. ...but anyways... ... Yesterday I went hiking. I found out that I have shin splints. And last night I took off my clothes. I am getting my camera developed, I will show you a picture or two. I got my paycheck today. 37 bucks... I like money. Thats all I have to say to you right now. in the name of our... anniversary