It feels good to just sit down and relax every once in awhile. Just forget everything that is making me stressed or worried. Push everyone away and retreat into the blackest part of my mind. You have to wake up eventually though. I started thinking about the quality of my friends. The reason why I surround myself with them. Its a hard thing to think about, sometimes you come up for broke. I wonder what kind of person I am to them. I havent been feeling like myself lately. I am not unhappy today. I am calm, soft. I have started to accept my problems and get over them. Yesterday it was like there was a tornado inside of me, wreaking havoc on my nerves. Today I am just picking up the peices.