God people are such dumbasses... God I hate people... People piss me off. I hate them. Well, I woke up in an intresting way this morning. My brothers come into my room around 11, tell me that a cat followed them home, and then tell me that they have put it on my bed and that they dont know what to do with it. So I say ok, put the cat in my lap and order them to bring me the phone. They do, and we call mom. She said to put it outside with some food. We did. I wanted to keep it. I couldnt go back to sleep. The end. I hate people. I have to go to drum camp tommorrow. I dont want to. Nine to five. Eight fucking hours... Fuck fuck fuck. That pisses me off. He pisses me off too. So rash you are kiddo, so obnoxious. Go die. He also pisses me off. You flirt, stop hurting my friends. I am the only one who is allowed to hurt people. Get the fuck away from me. Life pisses me off. Make me stop living. I miss him though... amazingly enough... he is the only one who I have missed. The only one that I have drawn to me, who I miss. This is a strange thing, to miss a guy. But I miss him, alot. I dont want to go to school, I dont want to go to band, I dont want to do anything. All I want to do is curl up in the fetal position and die alone in the dark. And I want him. I am going through him withdrawels. I dont only want to be near him, but I want to talk with him and laugh with him. I want to be held in his arms and comforted. I want him to come to me, and to confess his full feelings, and to let me be held. That is what I want. I am so pathetic. He comes back on Saturday. I will see him on Monday. Its not that bad. I want to be missed by him as much as I miss him. My darling void, I will leave you alone with your porn ads and online degrees now. in the name of him