I feel so out of place. I go these places with my love, band concert, Student Council banquet, the awards ceremony, and I don't feel as if I belong. I feel so silly. I haven't seen any of my friends who graduated last year with me except for my two best friends, and they're gone. I'm not used to being around high school people anymore, and the awards ceremony today reminded me why I liked college better than high school. Some people are idiots when they're around their friends and trying to look cool. But I'll go anywhere for my love, just to be with him. I think I should go to the library soon and get a library card. I was told by people in the know that Lit Trad 4 is much easier if you read the books ahead of time, so I'll go and borrow the books and try to read them. That's my plan, anyway. I probably won't have all that much time to read all the books, but I already have Crime and Punishment read (I read that my sophomore year in high school and last summer), so that takes a little bit off the load. If I read the books, as many as I can at least, now when I have time to understand them it might be a little easier when I have to read them for class and analyze them. Then I won't be reading to understand the plot--I'll be reading to understand different things. And plus I'll be able to read it faster (i.e. The Divine Comedy) and not have to take so much time on it (i.e. Paradise Lost). It's much better that way. Sonic for lunch with my love, gas station and library after that, and hopefully Victoria sometime in the very near future.