Word of the Day: demesne 'Christ has died, Christ is risen, Christ will come again.' Mass today was amazing. I don't know what was going on, but I couldn't stop myself from crying. It was just so beautiful. There was a baptism, a confirmation, and a renewal of some old people's wedding vows. It was mass-and-a-half, but I didn't mind. I needed to be there because somehow it fit in with what's been going on in my life. It helped heal a part of me. Shivers ran through me, which is normal at mass, but this mass was different. I could feel God there with me, right there next to me. No, closer than next to me, inside of me it had to be. I don't know. 'Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed.' I really cried. I almost cried during the baptism, but I cried during the renewal of the wedding vows. Were they tears of joy, of love, of hate, of nothing? No, I think they were tears of pain. I didn't deserve to be there, to be blessed along with other and better people. I felt like an intruder, but I was there, experiencing things I had before but were somehow much more different and meaningful then. God, I love life. 'Alleluia, the kingdom of this world is become the Kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ, and of His Christ, alleluia, and He shall reign for ever and ever, King of kings and Lord of lords.'