i wanna get out of here. uughhh...brenda and brion might be going to florida with lisa for xmas break which suuucks ass because my break will be soo boring. but if they go before xmas we might still be able to go to the show! i hope they go before because ill die if i cant go. but it just made me realize how sad everything in my fucking life is. all i wanted to do was go there and get away from everyone, thats my hideaway. and shit with my dads job is always interfering, hes always afraid of losing it and what not, thats why we just want to move but the jobs down south arent any better than here, theres hardly any openings. we need a fucking democratic president. FUCK George Bush right in his fucking ass. watch, i probably wont even be able to go for spring break. then, your gonna see me mad. well not see but yeah fuck you whatever. :( for the past few weeks i have felt an unbelivable amount of like, mis-placement. i just dont feel like i fit in with anyone anymore. i have no idea where my life is going. and all the plans i have for college and stuff just seem like there not going to formulate, at least for me. i feel like everyone is going to be getting into ucf and shit, and i just wont make it. then what will i do? i have no like fall backs. im not staying here. and no ones gonna wait for me, i mean they cant, its college. and while thats 2 years away and soo much shit is gonna happen inbetween that, its still scary as hell for me. i just dont like the way ive felt lately. its too hard to explain, i cant find the right words to sum it up in. i just hope it goes away. - edit - this made me feel a little better.
Florida is the perfect state for you. I hope you
don't mind hurricanes all that much. But
really though, Florida is nice.

What State Is Perfect For You?
brought to you by Quizilla *sigh* - edit two - i like jessica simpsons new song "With You" its cuuuuute. i feel a little better than i did before. my family is coming over in like a half hour for my dads birthday. there not so bad, i dont mind hanging with them. i just did a lot of thinking in the shower and stuff and i realized i need to stop worrying and just have fun. but regardless, i need a ciggarette. argh. 1. How many photos do you have on display in your room? i have a ton of friend pictures, a whole wall of surfing and beach pictures, and a bob marley wall. 2. How many blankets do you have on your bed right now? 3 3. What's in your closet (besides clothes?) some catalogs, pictures, yearbooks, a wedding barbie doll still in the plastic ;) haha a book bag, 3 purses and a cowry bead belt 4. Do you share your room with anyone else? nooope 5. How many clocks do you have in your room? none 6. What's the last thing/who's the last person you think of before you go to sleep? matt, or mr.V, and always surfing 7. What do you usually eat for breakfast? coffee and a bagel or something 8. How many candles on your next birthday cake? 16!!! :DD im so stoked 9. How many pets do you have? jingles my doggy ;) 10. What color socks do you wear? whatever i can find, socks are the least of my worries. 11. How many pairs of shoes do you have? vans, sketchers, those white things, and tons of flip flops. 12. What kind of toothpaste do you use? the best kind in the universe..colgate total advanced :D 13. What are your hobbies? listening and writing music, thinking, looking up everything about surfing, chillen with my chilliansss 14. What's your record time for talking on the phone? oh booooy, probably like 5 or 6 hours with paul, jessy, brenda, neil, or matt. 15. How often do you check your email? only when i need to, i dont use email for writing to people 16. Who do you email most? sometimes in school i email jen but thats it lol 17. How many names are in your address book? uhhh dont have one 18. What's the stupidest movie you've ever seen? SLC Punk..haha eric 19. Root beer float or milkshake? milkshake 20. Have you ever been outside of the U.S.? yep ive been to canada a few times 21. Would you eat a bowl of live roaches for $500,000? probably, i need money. 22. Are you allergic to anything? just this medicine called Ceclore 23. What's the nicest compliment you've ever received? some people have said i was gorgous before, but does lying count? haha ;) 24. What ages do your friends vary between? a few younger than me, my age, up to like 25-ish - edit three - WHO who is your best friend? brenda who do you like love? m :( who is your mom? luann :) who owns your house? my dad who bought your clothes? parents, grama whos at your crib? right now its me drew my mom and dad my grama my dog my aunt my uncle and my other grama cause we just love company :) who loves you? i hope a few people. who are you talking to right now? no one Who was your last bf/gf? matt WHAT what town do you live in? endwell.. *gag* what are your pet peeves? nagging, clinging, apathy what are you wearing? gray billabong hoodie, some jeans from last year and my tan sketchers what do your teeth look like? perfectly straight and whiteeee, the oonly perfect thing about me :) what are you doing in an hour? my familys here so idk, but i need to go get new eyeliner cause mine broke. what is your middle name? lynne what is your deepest secret? i think thats why its called a secret what are you doing tomorrow? going to school then to BU w. brenda for guitar lessons from anddddyy :D what is your boy/girlfriends middle name? i dont have one. it used to be thomas :( what is in this for you? i love surveys. what is your favorite thing to do? dance what are you sitting on? my blue spinny office chair WHERE where are you at right now? my room where were you at at 12 noon today? in my room or living room where is your toothbrush at? in a plastic bag on top of my dvd player right now where do you sleep? my bed or the living room floor because i looove sleeping on floors :) where do you live? new york where were you at at 7pm yesterday? my living room eating wendys with my mommy watching will & grace :) where are your parents? moms in the kitchen dads in the living room where did you put your bookbag? my messanger bag is on the door handle of my room where do you keep your socks? closet WHEN when was your first kiss? 6th grade when are you getting a job? like as soon asi turn 16 thank God when did you graduate? ill be graduating in 2006 when will you grow up? i think i already am grown up for the most part when did you get home last night? around 1 in the morning when are you going to stop taking surveys? NEVER!! when was the last time you had coffee? yesterday morning when will you say that you love me? when you ass rape me WHY why are you taking this? like i said i love these why do fools fall in love? cause everyone does at some point. why am i weird? if i knew who you were id answer why are you weird? its all about perception why are you wearing what you're wearing right now? hoodie cause its freeezing, jeans cause thats what i wear everyday, and tan sketchers causeee for some reason ive been wearing them a lot lately why dont you have friends? because im selfish. Why cant you get a boy/girl friend? because i cant move on. HOW how did you know it was love? honestly one day after being friends with him all year i was doing something and it hit me that i really was truly in love with him. how do you fix your hair? usually straighten it but others just nothing cause its hella curly how many hours do you spend on the computer? more time than i do with the human race. how many TV shows do you watch? not many how did you find this survey? new how do you like it so far? gay