Welcome to 2004. there ivan, non-cliche ness. :) man, me and neil were on the phone for a few hours while i babysat Adam and i realized new years eve isnt all its cracked up to be party wise - at least at my age. im sure for some people it is and all but for me its mostly just a mind processing time. especially the two minutes before the countdown. neil was playing games on his computer and i started thinking.. this is it. every memory of matt erin florida piercings surfing 10th grade christmas just everything is a year gone. really, its just another day ya know? but it does have some spiritual meaning to me.. im sure when i get older partying is gonna be way fun, and im stoked. but for now im content with playing with an electric grocery store and listening to Neil play german games on the phone. i dont really have any "resolutions" quote unquote, but i have some aspirations. i really want to find someway to be comfortable with myself. fully. i want to learn how to let go and not hold back. i want to stop worrying so much about. about EVERYTHING.. most of all..i want..and need.. closure. yes, from matt. but from other people too. im not even really sure who else..but the reason we hold on to people and things is because of a loss of closure. there was never a real ending with us, i never understood it completely. i think i need to know... im thinking this year will be good.. & duh.. the first survey of 2004 ;) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Anger~~ **Who did you last get angry with? my mom but just for like 3 seconds. **What is your weapon of choice? id like a glock.. **Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? if there being gay like usual.. **How about of the same sex? i fucking hate girls. **Who was the last person who got really angry at you? my mom was pissed at me for a few minutes earlier tonight **What is your pet peeve? POSERS. **Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? it depends on what kind of grudge, and who it is. Sloth~~ **What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you have not done in a long time? clean my room **What is the latest you've ever woken up? 2 **Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? Erin **What is the last lame excuse you made? that i had to babysit earlier than i was told.. :X **Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? yes! **When was the last time you got a good workout in? the other day **How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? dont have an alarm clock. Gluttony~~ **What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Malibu coconut rum **Meat eaters" white meat or dark meat: white **Have you ever used a professional diet company? nope **Do you have an issue with your weight? i always wish i was thinner but then again doesnt every girl? **Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? spiccccy **Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought,"LUNCH?" cant say i have lol Lust~~ **How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? i have to count haha.. about 5 **How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? hmm..about the same?! hahahaha **Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? oh yes ;) **Have you "done it?" no not yet **What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? neck, stomach, and of course you gotta love the dick.. :) **Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope **Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? nopee Greed~~ **How many credit cards do you own? my dad got me my own credit card last year so one. **What's your guilty pleasure store? uhh Hollister, because i cant stand the poser fucking clothes they have in there, but their hoodies that dont have Hollister written ANYWHERE on them are cool..and there jeans are comfortable. **If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? buy my turqiouse and orange beach house in Flagler, and fucking travel. and invest some too.. **Would you rather be rich or famous? famous, since they kinda go hand-in-hand.. **Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yepp **Have you ever stolen anything? yes **How many MP3s are on your hard drive? over 900 Pride~~ **What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? learning how to surf **What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? establishing a better relationship with them and surfing since they love surfing too **What things would you like to accomplish in your life? go to college and do good and party the fuck up with my party buds. write an awesome book and sell millions. MAKE millions. be in a band & tour with all my favorites. go to endless concerts. surf all the time. travel to Spain, Las Vegas, California, Japan, Hawaii, and every kick ass surfing spot around the world. find my true fucking love and spend the rest of my life laughing non stop and having the best sex with him. **Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? YEAH more than anything..im way too competitive **Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes **Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? yes **What did you do today that you're proud of? drove around with neil and brenda and rocked out, and went into the new year with a better attitude. Envy~~ **What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? i wish i had brendas hair..i looove that girls hair **Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? ive never seen it but probably brenda or neil. **If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Brynn Austin or Alton from real world : las vegas. **Have you ever been cheated on? yes **Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yep **What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? mother fucking CONFIDENCE.