im just confused. like, really confused. because i dont know where this came from. and i dont know what to do or say about it. if there even is anything to do or say about it. i want there to be, but im not going to deal with rejection. and all that other crap. rarr. some guys dont need to be styled like works of art, they are works of art. psh, im reading Elle and i feel super sophistacated, until i come across the most shallow "question" in one of those question and answer sections. some girl complaining that she doesnt like the way her boyfriend looks, hes too "geeky" and his ears are too big or something. Contrary to that, "He has self-awareness, money, and a brilliant career; and best of all, we have incredible sex!" make me puke. how is all that not enough to make you find your significant other attractive? or could it possibly be that your a shallow bitch who only dates people for their money and ability in bed? we'll just forget about the fact that this man might be the sweetest, funniest, and most caring guy you'll ever fucking meet you trampy whore! AH. people make me sick. yeah so i stopped writing for awhile cause me and my mom were looking at funny stuff online to cheer me up a little, since my dad kinda tweaked on me for a second and even though he didnt mean it i dont like being yelled at at all. but anyways im in a better mood now so its cool. and i just wanna like party and go dancing and stuff but its like im only 15 homey, theres no where to go and its like im just stuck dancing in my basement and its just lame cause i wanna go out so bad. but whatever its chill it'll all come together in time. just as everything will. love?