isnt that peachy. guys really must be the most confusing concept. its kinda fun though. its not fun to just pretend you like someone because your so used to always having someone there, but i dont know if thats what im doing/ been doing. im thinking its better to just have fun throughout high school though, we have so much time to settle down. but being in love can be so uplifting..nervewrecking, but thoughtful..fun, but stressful. but it just leaves you with this huge void that at times you feel like no one can fill, and other times you feel as if anyone can. im always creating something out of nothing. i think of these perfect romances that could become with me and whoever i feel close to at that time, but mostly ive been doing that since the break up. it's amusing, until i realize it can never happen, mostly because these people are anywhere from ten to fifteen years older than me...then the other ones, i just think of the worst. it would just be nice to have someone to talk to on a more intimate level, someone who can read me like a book, and is very understanding and just wants to talk and kiss all the time. but for now: i'll start concentrating on what everyone around me has been doing for years, having FUN. cut worrying for awhile, and maybe just enjoy life? sounds good to me. ~~~~~~~~~~~ *** if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave. these wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just too real, theresjusttoomuchthattimecannoterase// *** ~~~~~~~~~~~ could you -w h i s p e r- in my ear the things you wanna feel, ill give you anything to feel it coming &ill do anything you ever dreamed to be complete little pieces of the nothing that f a l l put your arms around me what you feel (is what you are) and what you are is beautiful runaway.