i fucked my computer up for a few days so it wouldnt let me get on internet explorer and everytime i go to get online at school some ass rod is always using the computer or gets on just to piss me off so i havent been able to write. nothing has happened.. except ive cried every single day since ive been home, which is a week today. gah.. its been pretty shitty. if i drop something i cry. its not like me because i hardly ever cry anymore and its just been like hardcore. so i decided to go to mrs. root today, the school psychologist who is my absolute savior, just so i could have someone to just listen for a minute ya know. shes the most un-judgemental person ive ever met, and she really is the BEST listener. she understands a lot of things that i cant talk to anyone else about.. and i do mean anyone. i talk about most things that bother me with people because ive always been comfortable doing that, but theres always a few things that i keep to myself and so to have someone who doesnt know everything about me and isnt with me everyday its just so nice. anyyyyway.. things have gone kinda downhill with every aspect of my life since i got home. and i know i know.. "everyone" hates it here.. blah blah blah.. theres no point in explaining how i feel about this because there are no words extreme enough to portray my emotions the past week. and im getting fucking pissed off just writing about it...