It's 7:28 on a Sunday night tomorrow is school which means biology and English test.. I am so different lately I just feel that I am missing something that somewhere inside me is an empty void that's sucking in everything.. It's draining me, lack of energy lack of everything.. I am tired all of the time, And everything is so weird now it's like I am not even human now. it's like I am some machine and everyone expects something great form me.. I can't stay here much longer, I can't live with my mum anymore she is making me insane.. I need to move far away from this place. I don't even care were I move anymore.. My plan is to get a couple jobs and find a place to live go to my school counselor and see if I could possible to get emancipated or maybe just go live with my dad in Florida. I will live anywhere with anyone just to be away. Its not that I want to "run away" It's just that I hate everything here, I'm not happy here so I think it would be better if I just go cause right now I have no strings attached. I even ask my mum that after this year if we could please move I don't care about changing high schools I just want to get the hell out of here the faster the better. I mean of course I will miss my friends, but I am gonna have to leave them sooner or later so why does it even matter. I really don't know why I want to leave so bad. Is everywhere in the world the same? I mean if I leave will I have to deal with the same shit? I really don't know.. Why is it that I want to move so bad? I don't know.. I don't think that I am trying to escape or maybe I am.. It could just be that I am sick of cape cod.. Who really knows? It's weird. Sometime I just feel like shit just has to happen to me.. but hell it happens to everyone.. "if it went for bad luck I'll have no luck" everyone feels that way at one point in there life's. So I am just gonna wait this out and see what happens, who knows things may or may not get better.. -dani