Yesterday was the worst and best day of my life.. I know my friends are there for me and will help me no matter what. But its not easy. My mind is always on him and I can't let go. I want to. I want to be able to go a day without being upset I was to be able to sleep a full night. He has no clue how bad it hurts. He has no clue how bad he fucked me up. And I canr say anything to him he hates me now. Yesterday I left school early and went home sick cause everything just built up school work people tyler that fact that I may be sick and going to a go school next year. I feel like everything is crashing around me I feel like everyone is going 80 when I'm stuck on 50.