I just realized tonight how much of a fucking mess my horrible excuse of a life is, WHY CANT PEOPLE JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND GET THE FUCKING PICTURE THAT I DONT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH THEM, I am so sick of hanging out with people who want to do nothing more than sit at my house and do nothing, fuck fuck!! i know this person is supposed to be my best friend and i should enjoy our time together but i fucking dont I DONT WANT TO SPEND EVERY SINGLE FRIDAY DOING NOTHING AHHHHHHHHHHHH people just fucking assume i am going to hang out with them on certian days but i dont FUCKING WANT TOO!! I AM JUST TOO FUCKING NICE AND FEEL SORRY FOR THERE ASSES. I want to do what I want for once and not what everyone els wants to do. fucking shit i am so pissed off right now its not even funny. Idont give a shit anymore its time for me to enjpy my fucking life, and not let anyone get in my way, i am so sick of making everyone els happy its my happy time now so just fuck off.