And if the echo's of my screams don't ever leave my mind ill still forgive you even if the indelible memories still haunt my dreams ill still stand by you ill never forget what we once had but in reality its just a distant memory fading away in the darkness of my mind your voice once calming and soothing now is nothing but muffled noise in the background of my memories how I wish to hear your voice call out my name to be reveled form this pain would I find paradise? Time only tells that your days are numbed each day passing by so fast we don't realize how fragile we really are till its to late it takes years of trying to reach the top to spend entirety falling down nothing in this world is fair all we can do is coast along this sea of pain and take the blows as they come some will rise above others and some will fall deep into the darkness and be forgotten but you cant help it when your six feet down and the rain keeps falling until the water level is at your neck take your last breath and cry out the name you want to be heard I'm drowning from the pain I don't want to be alone who can you go too when no one truly cares you non excitant in their eyes I long to feel free to have that missing part of me is it time it let go and end this life long fight? to give in? and let my head slip under this muddy water let it silence my screams and let it be so you'll never hear from me again