So I did it broke it off with Tyler it's like a broken up break type of deal, He has been sleeping in another room away from me and we do share my car and talk it just fucking sucks cause I am still getting shit for every little thing I do not just from him but my mom as well, My mom has been totally rude to me since I have done this, She has been pissed because I have been going out and having fun, I only went out twice this week and she was like you can’t do this to Tyler its wrong and you know it

It is not wrong she knows what he has done to me in the past and she is going to side with him? Really? Honestly WTF. Tyler and I had a talk the other night when I got home and it was just horrible for me, I NEVER CRY and I was hysterical, He came up to my room and pissed off asking me how could I do this to him??

I was like after our fucking past you are going to give me shit, My prom night which he promised he would come with me we had this planed for over a year he ditch out of me, My high school graduation he said he would come watch me walk, he ditch me, My 18 birthday he ignored me the whole fucking day, did call me or anything, this was when we were not living together, he did terrible things to me, when my dog died I called I was so upset he left it go to voice mail and never called me back.. this went on for 2 weeks he didn’t call me or anything and he claimed we were still together, When he finally called me he said “oh, my phone was broken” bull fucking shit he had a car and a computer than a home phone and friends with phones he did that to hurt me, in killed me inside someone who claims to love me so much than ditches me when I am most vulnerable, this is why I don’t trust men. I was there for Tyler for everything he went thru, when he lost his house his truck and his father I was there by he side and this is what I get in return,. There is more that he has done to me but that is too private and too pain full to bring up. I will NEVER LEFT A MAN DO THIS TO ME AGAIN, Tyler ruined me, I don’t care how much I love someone this shit is not worth it, relationships are a fucking joke anyway there just based on lies. Sooner or later the true colors will come out and it’s too late than because you’re already in love. FAKE it’s all fucking fake I never want to date again! I am so freaking pissed off right now.

But like the stupid bitch I was I forgave him, I was so in love with him I didn’t care and it took me two years to talk to him about this. I did it and I asked how the fuck could you do that to me? He said he was stupid back than and did not know what he had, I said well what’s going to stop you from being stupid again and he said he doesn’t know and what he can do to regain my trust. I said that’s all on him he is the one who fucked up and he needs to fix it not me.

This is why I can win, I get shit from him and my mother every time I go out, it’s like what do I do? Stay with him and make everyone els happy? Make my life drama free again and keeping living with mixed feelings of anger love pain and sorrow? Or keep doing what I am doing and make my home life suck? I just can’t win at all, I had to hide my single Facebook status cause I kept getting shit for it and random men were trying to get with me. I can’t win im trapped in this shit and I feel like I will always be. Freedom was fun while it lasted but I don’t need all this shit and drama in my life I might as well go back to what I had weather i am happy or no apparently doesn’t matter to my family. I can’t win I just can’t ever win.