It would be nice to have an answer, but that would be all to easy. Nothing in life is easy and nothing is fair. Sometimes I wish that I could get an hint, or some kind of clue to tell what the hell people are thinking. But half the time I don't even know what the hell I was thinking. We all make mistakes and do stupid things. We would like to believe and turst people but that is just silly. Not many can be trusted. They will take that turst and kill you with it. So shame on me, for thinking that things would be different. OH WELL. I am over it, see the difference between me and other girls is that I don't care, and if I do I don't tell or show any signs of it. They don't care I don't care, why bother? It's just a waste of time and energy, why kill myself with sorrow over someone who dosen't care? I don't.

Anyway, I went out last night for the first time in a few weeks, it was alright. I ended up going out with a few girls from one of my classes. It would of been better if I didn't bump into my lab partner who happens to be a complete klutz. Every single lab so far he has hurt me in some way, cut me with glass, burned me with fire and almost dumped a harsh chemical on me, so yea this kid is going to end up killing me. So I am sitting at the bar with my friends he starts running over and is like omg Danielle whats up than crash..... he drops his drink on me....... Really? I was like omg kill Roy (his name is Roy but I call him Kill Roy) even outside of class you manage to drop something on me. I don't know what his issue is, either he is in fact a crazy klutz or maybe I just make his nervous. I don't know either way he annoys me. And him annoying the shit out of me is not helping me quit smoking I have so far gone more than a day i am at hour 28 now and it's killing me. This sucks big time.

I am doing it all on my own with no support, so its really not easy. Than again I don't get support for anything else so I should just get used to it. Whatever I am not in a good modd. But it seems like all these post are written when I am mad or upset, this is how I vent. I am usually a very happy up beat. Not many people who actually know me see this side of me, but thats how I like it I guess. Here I can throw out my real feelings onto a page and not regret it, no one knows me here, and no one who knows me in person can read this. Maybe one day I will write a post when I am happy so that way you can see that I am not some kinda of crazy bitch who is always mad.