I wont be here forever, and now even tho I am so young I can see that. Life is so unfair but that is how it is. You take what you can get, and I will keep this smile on my face and take everything little thing I can get. I have been so very lucky. I'm not scared. I am alive.

I know it's been a long time since I last wrote in this and I don't know when my next post will be, I have been so busy with class and work and now back and forth to the doctors, I want things to slow down I need more time to just enjoy life.

One day at a time, on step at a time, one breath at a time, everything will be fine I am going to be just fine. It is what it is I can either be sad about this and have it make everything worse or I can take this in stride and make the best of a bad situation.

Test after test, being poked and probed from one scan to another, I am so young and yet my health could make me seem so old. But I am alive.