I just don't understand what is going on anymore, Everything I do always seems to backfire on me. Tonight was my only night off for this whole long weekend, And it started off really good, Went to the mall saw most of my friends.. But than my mum and sister got in a fight at work and somehow.. I go dragged in. It's not like I am not used to it, I always get dragged in on their arguments. Than I feel like it's my fault... It's my fault that they got in a fight or it's my fault that something broke or something was lost.. everything is my fault.. It's like I am only noticed when they are mad at me.. Or want to blame something on me.. I try my best to be a good friend a good student and sister/daughter but enough is enough.. I always go way out of my way for everyone, and try to make them happy.. but most of the time no one does that for me. I really don't know anymore.. I just really need to get away from this... I mean school has enough drama as it is I don't need it at home or at work. I just need to get control of my life again and everything will be fine.. The hard part is how do i get control again? Or should I just wait this out, till all this fog fades away when I can see clearly again and see where I can start on my path to control.