It's fucking two days till christmass and I feel like total shit, and I don't know why? I should be uber happy, and I'm not.. Like I don't remember the last time I felt this way. Like as if no one really cares. I just feel like no one wants me around right now?? Weird? IDK. i think i need to shut the fuck up and stop being so fucking emo. GOD! ugh I sound like a little bitch. I don't mean to spill this shit on the page like this. I just don't know any other way to let my voice be heard. Last ngiht i sould if been really happy cause I got to see me friends and hang out with them but i just brought them down. Cause I'm being this way. I don't know if its just the holidays making me like this.. or something els.. I just dont know. And like anyone really read this shit. feel free to drop me a comment.