I don't know what is wrong with me anymore.. It's lik soeone els has taken control of me.. That i am no longer alive and the thing living inside me controls everything i do think and say.. It's like almost being a shadow you can see everything but you can't do anyting.. For weeks now.. I don't know.. I am so lost I really just need to get away run away be free.. I been freaking out in school acting out and just no being myself at all.. An my friends have all turn away form me becaue of this.. I am so cold and distant from the world.. noing touches my anymore.. I no longer feel alive nothing makes me happy.. I am just so alone.. I need to shut up and deal with life... i will conutiue being a shadow untill i know what to do with my life..