fuck this, I go wayyy of my fucking way for people, do everything I can to make everyone els happy, I try so fucking hard and get nothing in return. Well, not anymore I am sick to fucking death being treated like I'm some piece of shit. I don't deserve to be treated like that. No fucking way. After all I have done and after all the fucking shit I put up with. They go and do it again? "oh I swear I'll see you later" "sorry Can I see you tomorrow" HA big surprise on that one.. Nothing every sees to amaze me anymore. Were supposed to hang out today but I know that's not going to happen. I'm not fucking stupid.. If you don't want to see me and If you don't want to hang out with me just FUCKING SAY SO! Don't fucking lie to me. Don't fucking make shit up. I'm not stupid.. What the fuck... What do you think hurts more.. Being lied to by your "best Friend" or just being told that you can't hang out cause you have other plans? Yeah.. Sucks for them cause I was going to do something special for them today.. But fuck it now! After everything... I tried so fucking hard to get today and yesterday off.. I had to do so much at work just to get these days off.. And I did it all for that "friend"... This is what I get in return? nice...real nice.. I don't know what to do.. The person I'm talking about wont see this.. So I dont't really care and I won't tell them how I feel cause it's just not worth it.. I think i am just over reacting.. I'm just hurt ya know? I try and I try.. It just seems like no one really cares. I'm not gonna keep trying if this keeps happening. Is it really worth it to keep this friendship? Should I just give up? I can't help them or change them. That's why talking to them never works. They don't even seem to care that I am upset. I don't even feel like they even care about me anymore. What do I do? I can't keep fakeing that everything is ok.. cause it's killing me to do that.. Do you have any clue how hard it is to look into the eyes of the person that is hurting you and tell them that everything is fine? Do you know how it feels to have to tell them your sorry when you never did anything? no.. I don't think anyone knows. Dont get me wrong.. I Love my friend to death.. There an amazing person. There funny, kind, and sweet.. they just..well..idk.. i honeslty dont know.. I feel like the life is being drained out of me.. one min i can be so happy and the next it hurts to breath.. I just don't get it.