Its really not that easy, I'm going to school now at 4c's to hopefully become a massage therapist. I am trying really hard and doing my best... but sometimes things just fall apart and you fall behind. Ya know? I don't mean to but it happens but I always catch up and do better. The problem is I'm so stressed about this. I'm scared that I won't make it. This is really all I have right now. I want this more than anything and sometimes I just wish I had some support. I do get it from my Mum and classmates, but I just wish my friends would help me out sometimes too. They really don't know how stressed out I am and how worried I am about this. I understand the fact that they have their own life and their own issues to deal with... But I always help them out no matter what and I always listen to them and do whatever I can to find a solution for them. I really feel like idk.... like they don't appricate me sometimes. I do so much for everyone els. Its not that I don't like doing it. I enjoy it very much, I like making people happy and showing them I care. I just wish someone outside of my family would do something special for me just for once, like what I have done for my friends. I have go way out of my way for people. Gotten up in the middle of the night cause they needed a ride, bailed people out of jail, given money when they were broke. Even suprised people with nice things when they were having a bad day or a ruff time. I'm happy that I have done this and I'm happy that my friends know that I am always here no matter what... I'm not being used which is a good thing. I know my friends love and care about me, they have done nice things for me in the past. But it really dosent happen anymore. I don't want anything I just want someone to listen to me and I mean really listen. I'm scared about school and theirs also a buch of other stuff I just need to get of my chest... but they don't always listen to me or they change the subject and talk about them. All I want is for someone just to help me get thru this. I'm also scared about this "issue" I thought it was nothing at first but now I feel like its getting worse. And no matter what I do I'm always worried about it now, I don't know what to do about it. I can't really talk to anyone and I don't think its serious enough to the point where I need a doctor or anything. I just don't know. I need someone to help me for once.