"Also known as the Catherine Wheel and it was a mediaeval execution device"

Even tho I am not about to be executed, life has gotten me down enough to the point where even this grusome method of death seems better than going another day with the shit I have been dealing with.

NO I am not suicidal, I am not going to hurt or harm myself I am just bitching, I am not happy and I am putting it in writing and if you don't like it than stop reading this as simple as that.

If you have a problem with the fact I am not happy with life and I am saying shit like I would rather be on this "Catherine Wheel" than read someone else post, but this is life it dosent get much more real than this.

I can fill these post with delusions, false facts about happy bunnies and rainbows but that is not the world we live in, it's not the world I live in. So get over it. This is my post and I will write what I want.

No I don't want to die, I don't want to hurt myself I just want this pain to go away. I want for things to get better, I want to be a normal healthy 21 year old, I don't want to have to worry about things people in their 40s do.

whatever

This is the world we live in, this is the world I live in.

this is what it is, its life, just deal with it. I'm not crying and I don't expect any of you to cry for me.

I'm just bitching and now I am going to go shut up.