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I think I am in some deep shit here, Everything is getting so hard and everything is getting really really fucking old fast. I have been really stress out and I don't know how to handle it. Well I know one way.. Which I have been doing behind everyones back. That's why I think I need help. Things with my BF have been really really hard and my family is getting to me, School is getting hard, Work is pulling me, and friends are just making it hard. I can't handle it.. It's to hard. everything is just building up. I have been smokeing up just to calm myself down.. Taking ease the stree.. But It's getting back at the pont where i need it just to feel normal again. I dont know what to do, If i tell tyler he will break up with me for doing drugs.. But hes is part of the problem.. I cant lose him and i fear i will so i get stress out and everything just builds up. I dont know