Ever since eight grade my personality has gone through many changes, Most of them for the good, I have open up more, I have become more talkative, also I think I am more fun now. But lately I really haven't felt like myself. I mean it's like this is all some kind of a dream that I have no control over. Life seems to be in control of me right now. I know what I have to do, But I don't know how I got like this. Cause all of a sudden I am back to the way I was again. I am really quite I have even notice it. And I am feeling really shy around people again. I don't know why. It's just a little weird. Once I get control back I'll be fine. It's just that every once in a while I let things get out of hand like everyone eventually does. But there is no problem. I think the problem is a school thing. But whatever everyone has his or her own problems with school or with life even, the only thing you have to do is fine you error and correct it. Like a question on a test, If you get it wrong you got back and fix it. That way you wont make the same mistake twice. I have no clue where that metaphor came from lol. But anyway, Nothing new has really happen, Just that I am trying to find a new job so I will have money over the winter for phone bills, driving school and stuff. I don't think I am gonna be on the Cape much longer, After this year I am praying that my mum finds a place for me and her. And I don't even care if it's in RI anymore as long as I am as far away from this place as we can get. It could be anywhere in the world I don't care. I just really want to get away. Meet new people break away from this shit hole. Sometimes I wonder, What life would be like for me if I never came here, If I just stayed in Boston. The only downside to that is the few great wonderful friends I have here I would have never known. But who knows who I would have met there. -dani <3