What's worst than worst? Having to give up something you want more than anything. Than loesing the one you love more than anything, than having to live with the guilt and shame alone. Who would make up shit about me? I haven't done anyone wrong. I haven't hurt anyone and I haven't lied to anyone. But giving up its not the answer, letting go is not the answer either. I can't give up on the one I love not untill I know for sure. And even than I I don't want to give up him. Not now not after everything that has happen, I don't know what to do anyone other than just try to stay clam. But even than I'm consumed by my emotions, I'm not ready to end this part of my life, He is not only the one I love but he is also my best friend.