I don't know what I am gonna do, It's feels like all my friends a running away from me. First John, now him? How much more can a girl take? When I first lost John it broke my heart to know that I would never see him again. Even though it still hurts to look at his empty chair in class, each day it gets easier. But I CAN'T lose him. I just can't. I don't know what I would do without him. He is the only people that I can talk to sometimes cause he understands me. We know each other very well and we understand each other. He is probably one of my closest friends. I can't lose him. If I do I would not be able to go back to our cass,and see his empty chair. I can't handle that. Everyone has that one friend that you can talk to about everything. He is that to me, So was John that's why It broke my heat to see him leave. But I feel that I can tell him anything, I know he is always there for me and will always listen to me no matter what happens. and to lose him... Just that thought of that makes me want to scream. I don't know what to do, I don't know if I can handle to lose someone els in my life. The few friends that I have I want to keep, I need them. Who knows where I'll be without them. not here I know that much. Yes, I know I have other friends, But no ONE comes close to the relationship I have with him, no one. And to lose him shocks me. It took me forever to get this close to him, And I wont let anything destroy our friendship. I don't know if anyone reading this can understand what I'm feeling right now. Cause if I lose him, Who am I gonna talk to? Who will listen to me? I don't know if anyone would and really understand this... ~<3xxdanixx<3~