This has been the longest week of my life. I don't even know where to start everything just sucked so bad its hard to take in. The weekend was better tho I got to see my friend melissa before she left for texas. Which was really nice I'm going to miss her so much tho. I have been having a lot of stuff going on with my family as well which is very hard to deal with sometimes. I just don't like being home at all. I feel so out of place here sometimes. My sister and myself are very different but we get along sometimes which is good. My mum has just been well all over me all the time now. She won't leave me alone. Which is really all I want from her right now. Wow this whole entry is just about me bitching about my life arnt I wonderful... and to make things better my bf broke up with me. If this is rock bottom I guess its all up hill from here. He broke up with me cause he wants to get his life together get a job and a car. And so he swears he will come back for me. I don't know what to believe right now. Kory my sisters ex bf broke things off with her for the same reason and well they never got back together. Can you balme me for being bullshit a little? I was thinking about it and well who knows how long he is going to take who knows if he really is going to call me back at some point so he says. I'm not playing sideline bitch anymore. I don't mean so sound full of myself but I'm to good for that shit. Plus he hurt me he walked out of my life at the worst possibly time and wants me to just take him back at some point? Wtf do I look like? I have no clue what's going on right now sorry. I'm just being a girl with fucked up emotions. I don't know what I want or feel. I'm just confused. And I feel like everyone is leaving me.