I don't mean to come off the way I do at times.. It's just at time.. I don't know I can be very distant and people don't seem to like that.. I am not one to just open up and spill my heat out to just anyone.. I never really do that anyway.. Even though I have this online diary I put most of my though in private entries.. I really don't mean to be cold and distant.. Sometimes that is just how I am.. I don't know it's weird.. See Kevin came in again, tonight.. And I was not in a good mood at all I was tired and just really down.. Missy and Nad where already there when he came in so it was easy to talk to him, but what really make me upset is when Nad was like "didn't you too date or something" I just froze up and did not say a word.. But Kevin spoke up as soon as Nad closed her mouth.. he said "it's a long story but it was good while is lasted" I tried to don't make eye contact with him after that but that is really hard for me cause for some reason when I talk to someone I have to keep eye contact.. yeah I'm weird.. But I am really confused does this mean he still likes me? and if so what do I do? I really don't know.. As much as I would like to go back out with him.. I wont I can't after what happen between us.. And I really feel bad not giving him a second chance but the way I see it is.. If it did not work out the first time than it was never met to be.. But in some cases that changes.. But with Kevin.. it would not work out I just know it.. I just want to get through this year of school as quickley and painless as possible..