Its hard to explain this but I'll do the best I can. Sometimes people do or want you to do things that THEY think are best for you when it's really not. I almost feel like it's not even my choice anymore. I want this, I want this more than I have ever wanted anything. "Your too young" "it's gonna ruin our lifes" "you have to do this" it's going to hurt me, I don't think I will ever be the same after this. I look at every kid now and I see my child, I see my baby holding on to me, loving me. I never felt this way before. The thing he dosent understand that some of my friends mum's hate them when they were younger than me.. If they were "to young" they would not be here right now. I don't want to do this... but I don't want my baby my little boy or girl to have a hard life I want they to have a better life than me. I want their childhood to be full of smiles and laughs. Not tears and screaming. I know this is probally for the best but I'm just have problmes letting go....