"Get over it" and that's when the tears started to fall even with me holding them back as hard as I could. His tone was harsh and cold. It felt like a knife that had been in the freezer over night got stabed into my heart. Cold and alone, with the one I "love" so much on the other end of the phone.. I was still alone. It wasent my fault, but than again it was.. It was always my fault.... "I didn't cheat we were on a break" I will never forget the way those words hit me. The fact that we were on a break didn't matter to me. It was the fact that he lied. Told me stright to my face "I won't have sex with anyone els" even his eyes lied to me...bullshit everything was just fucking bullshit. Sadness than anger came over and controled me. Before I knew it I my heart stoped and droped, and it hasent been the same since. I remember how my hands were shaking as I yelled over the phone and tears burned away with anger and how for the first time in my life, I wanted to fuck a dirtty little cunt up. HER, a little four eyed bitch. Just thinking of her makes me shake with anger. How I wanted to hurt her, how I wanted her to feel the pain she caused me. I don't really hate her, she fucking knew though... and so did he... They both fucking knew. More than anything I know it was HIS fault not hers. I just didn't want to believe he could do something like that to me. To be backstabed by the one you love the one you trust is like being murdered, but its worst, cause your still alive. Your alive but your soul your faith your hope is all dead. I still dont know what came over me... But I made what I believe was the right choice and took the one I loved back. But when thses memoires haunt me late at night and tears wake me up feeling empty and cold inside I call for solance and "get over it" is what I get to hear...... why dose love work like this? Why can't I let go? Why don't I want to let go? We don't pick the ones we love, it just happens, and I just so happen to love him. With all of my heart I love him... that's why it hurts so much.....