This is going to be a strange post because my mind is all over the place right now.

Have you every felt like you did something wrong but you're not sure what the hell you actually did? That when someone gets mad at you over nothing? Or that their is actually a reason why they are mad but it's not actually you're fault and thier just taking thier anger out on you?

I will be one of the first people to admit when I am wrong, to say sorry and try to fix thigns when I have messed up, I don't play games and I don't play the victim when I know it's my fault.

ANYWAY things get messy when I don't know what I did to upset someone I look back on my actions or words to see what I might of said or down that would upset somoene usually I never get it wrong and can help fix the problem. But maybe I am just missing something? or are my morals wrong?

Have I been living a life based on bad morals? Have I been living in this false sense of reality? What is going on?

I spent a very long time in a very bad relationship and I take fault for that I let him be bad to me, i let him walk all over me and treat me like shit. Let him guilt trip me into staying and doing all this shit for him, and because of that I have always had to be one in the relationship with the control, always having to make the plans, the one who always had to call first, if I did not put the effort into the relationship I would of never saw him.

I am sick of fighting, why fight for somoene who wont fight for you too. When I was no longer fighitng thats when things got really bad.

I want someone who will fight for me, but than again I don't think I want another relationship just another shitshow waiting to happen.