tell me all of this is a dream. i don't want to feel this anymore. so much pain and i can't release it. i want this all to be fake. when do you oh god, give me the world i deserve. i can't cut away anymore pain. give me something better. make all of this go away. all these thoughts running through my head and i can't think. its too loud and no one can hear me scream i need some help. i want some one to take this all away. give me something better. i want sooo bad to cut my skin and finally feel nothing. to release all of this. please help me.